And So, The Countdown Begins!

My life has become a numbers game:
33: Weeks pregnant
49: Days left in my pregnancy
28: Days left until full term
48: Days that Greg is supposed to be working non stop starting July 29th
2: Number of Braxtion Hicks contractions that I had last night in a 3 hour time period
50: Number of pounds I have gained so far. (Blehhhh I'm disgusted)
4: Liters of water I drink a day
0: Centimeters dilated

 Definitely seems like time was going so fast, and now it seemed to stall.  Which, I guess, is a good thing.  I'm still so unprepared though.  Some days it feels like nothing is going to get done.  And it's driving me nuts.  Somethings I need help with still, and I'm not going to get it.  Greg has less motivation than me to get things done.  Which I can understand.  He's been (and is going to be) working too much.

I just hope he doesn't have too much on his plate. 

And I hope that when the time comes his job will be understanding of the time he'll need to take off.

But I doubt that they will.  And generally speaking, if it comes to me or his job...it's looking like his job will win.

My mom already offered for me to stay there while I'm recovering after the baby.   To which I laughed in my head.  There is absolutely no way in hell I'm going to separate my family moments after my child is born.  Not to mention, I'm going to need to stay in York.  The baby's doctor is going to be here as well as mine.  Just in case something happens...you never know.  But talking to that woman is like banging your head against the wall.  The only thing it will lead to is a terrible headache and mass confusion.

I guess this is all tied to jitters.  Some days I question if this was all a terrible mistake.  That maybe I'm not ready.  Maybe both Greg and I need to grow up before we have this child.  But every time I have one of those thoughts I shake it out of my head.  I know that this is not the ideal time.  I know that if things were different I would be planning my trip down the aisle and not the trip to the delivery room.  And I know that everyone has their doubts before.  That everyone kind of freaks out because they don't want to do wrong. 

It's just so close to the end.  I can almost see August 30th already.  And I am so excited and nervous at the same time.

And so...the countdown keeps going.

Until Next Time:
~MommyToBee