It's been one year since I found out that I miscarried our little munchkin. I haven't been looking forward to this day, but I knew it was coming. Somehow, I feel that I should just accept it and try to put it in the past, but I can't. To this day I still think about the child that I had lost every day. It still hurts. I'm not sure that the pain will ever go away.
Although I am completely in love and excited for our little one growing inside of me, I can't help but to wonder what would be. At this time, I would have a child already. A little boy or girl in my arms. But, I have my Boo inside and he's healthy and I cannot wait to have him.
It still hurts. I've been trying to not think about this day...but I can't. I've been trying not to cry, but I am. I've been trying to concentrate on how excited Greg and I are for our little man...but it's so hard. All I can do is just think. And remember. And wonder if it really was my fault. Everyone says that it wasn't my fault, but I'm still not sure. All I want to do is just curl up in Greg's arms and cry.
But I'm going to try to pull myself together. I don't want to put myself under any extra stress and cause harm.
~MommyToBee
1 comment:
aww, i may be a 13 year old, but i know that when you have the baby, your going to be so happy. And it wasnt your fault, just think of the positives(:
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