Breastfeeding is fun? (TMI)

So last night at class we talked to the lactation consultant.  I really cannot wait to breastfeed.  Even if I once planned on only doing it for a few months, I'm really going to try for a whole year now.  *Maybe beyond that?  But I doubt that*  I know when I go back to work I'll have to pump, but at least I know that I can do it.  I think Greg is pretty excited for me to do it as well.  He's very supportive that I chose to BF. 

Speaking of boobs...they've been changing.  They hurt and they are sore.  (Sorry, TMI) But I suppose it's all worth it.  I just bought some Lansinoh cream...and it's amazing.  I wish I had this stuff about 3 weeks ago.  So good.  So very, very good.

This past week I've been getting things that we didn't receive at the shower.  We got our mobile, a few hooded bath towels and the diaper bag.  I can't wait until we get the mattress.  And the dresser.  And the glider.  And the changing table.  And...and...and...

...Okay so maybe I'm not prepared.  I just can't help it.  I'm so excited!  I know the days are just ticking away.  52 days until my due date! AHHHHHH!!! 

I'm less freaked now, and way more excited.  I can't wait to meet my son.  :D

Until Next Time:
~MommyToBee

I'm A Big Baby.

Last night at our childbirthing class we watched a video of an actual birth.  Now, I have watched baby shows on TV but they don't show what we saw last night.  I'm officially freaked the eff out. 

Seriously.  I didn't sign up for this.  He's not coming out.  I won't let him.  The exit that's already been chosen isn't going to work for me.  C-section ain't gonna happen either.  So, he's going to be stuck in there FOREVER.  And I'm perfectly fine with that.   If anyone has any issue with this...I suggest you take a lemon and shove it through your eye socket.  Then, and only then can you tell me that I'm being a big baby when it comes to the actual delivery. 

Yes, I am planning on taking drugs for the labor.  That is my choice.  And I want to be doped up.  Although, I found out last night that epidurals aren't always the best option.  Yea...you're legs can go completely numb.  Or just one leg.  Or your hips could be numb. And because of this, you will not be able to get out of bed.  Hmm.  Ohhh but there are other drugs you can get.  It'll make you feel drunk and they can be passed to the baby...so the baby might have an issue breathing when he comes out.  That doesn't sound good at all.

All I know is that I want to do some of the early labor at home so I can eat.  Because once you're hooked up to that monitor, forget eating.  You won't get food until little one comes out.

So, yes.  I'm rethinking this whole pregnancy/ having a baby thing.  I thought childbirthing class was supposed to put me at ease?  Instead I'm more freaked out then ever.

I'm a big baby having a baby...this isn't a good combo.

Until Next Time:
~MommyToBee

Yay!

Tomorrow is my shower!  I cannot be more excited.  I want to see my friends and some of my family.  (Still not completely sure how I can hold up to my mother, but I will try.  I don't want to start anything with her.)  I'm still in awe of my best friend, Jenn for putting together this entire shower.  (Even though my mother is "helping".)  She really is the best and I couldn't ask for anything more. 

Of course I have things to do today and I have no motivation to do so.  It could be because I'm not feeling well.  I'm having some weird pains in my sides.  God I hope it's just gas or ligament pain or something.  I'm super tired and nauseous.  All I want to do is lay in bed and sleep. :( 

Last night was our first child birthing class.  Now I thought the class was designed to help you not to be nervous about labor.  I'm slightly more scared now than what I was before.  Maybe because it's happening so quick?  I mean, we're talking about less than 10 weeks until I'm due.  Holy poop. 

..I think I changed my mind...I'm not ready to be a mommy!

Until Next Time:
~MommyToBee