Wednesday, August 18, 2010

Trying to stay positive.

Well we had our 38th week appointment yesterday.  I was having contractions on and off since Sunday so I was thinking that maybe there would be some progress.  Seriously no one really makes it to 38 weeks with out no dilation.  HA!  So wrong.  Not only was I still not dilated, but my cervix was still high.  (Meaning he's not ready just yet.)  My heart broke a little when the doctor said:  "Welp, just like I thought.  High, closed and thick."  I guess this means he's gotta bake a little more.

However, my blood pressure is creeping up.  I had it checked 5 times while I was there.  Started out highish...then it got even higher...then I had to stay for an additional 15 minutes for it to come down.  Luckily it did.  (I believe I was upset from staying in the room for FOREVER.  Apparently normal pregnant women were having babies at the hospital and all but one doctor went over...so they were a little busy.)  But I was told to just kind of relax and keep my feet up today.  Drink plenty of water.  Lay on my left side....yadda yadda yadda.  Don't they see that maybe I want to walk around like a crazed woman so maybe this child will come?  Nope, I guess not. 

Greg is trying to be supportive, but let's face it, he hasn't gained a ton of weight.  His hips don't hurt constantly.  And he doesn't have to occasionally stop in his tracks because your lungs feel like they just stopped working.  I miss seeing my feet.  I miss my engagement ring on my finger.  I miss sleeping on my belly.  As supportive as any man can be to his pregnant lady, he cannot fully comprehend what's going on.  A man will never be pregnant.  And will never know what it truly feels like. 

He does try.  And I'm sure that my constant bitchiness isn't helping much to put a smile on his face.  He understands that I'm uncomfortable.  I just hate how he says "Baby, he'll come when he's ready."  That doesn't help me to see the whole light at the end of the tunnel.  I do know that ultimately I'll be pregnant for maxim of 22 days.  I don't think the doctors will let me go that long.  (My fundal height was 46cm yesterday...but he had his little tooshy WAY up there.)

But, if I don't start dilating and my blood pressure continues to be an issue, they will have no choice but to induce.  Yes, that will suck...but I want my baby to be healthy.  And that includes having a healthy mommy too. 

I know I'm growing impatient...but for real now...it's time for this bun to be let out of the oven. 

Until Next Time:
~MommyToBee

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