Don't Underestimate Me.

When I got pregnant I heard a lot of things from a lot of naysayers.  "You'll breastfeed for 6 weeks then throw in the towel."  "With your history of depression, you'll have post partum depression."  "You won't be able to handle being a mother and a wife."  "You'll never get yourself out of debt."  And the one that hurt the most:  "You'll never be a good mother."

Yea.  With friends/ family like that...who needs enemies?

I will admit that one of those lines are correct.  I have to deal with post partum depression.  About 3 weeks after Jaden was born, I decided that I needed some help and I went on Zoloft.  I wasn't proud, but I knew it was for my son.  That made it a little easier to accept.  Now, almost 3 months later, I feel that I don't need those pills anymore.  Who knows, I may lapse...but I know I can do it.

Now...onto proving myself. 

• It's been three months...and I still love breastfeeding.  Is it hard?  Sure!  But it's something I feel very strongly about.  When we stop that's up to Jaden.  Come hell or high water, I will provide nutrion for my son.
• Yea...I'll admit, for the first few weeks I didn't do much.  But then again, I had a very difficult recovery from my c-section.  Greg and I might have our issues but we're making it work. 
• Debt is a terrible thing.  I'm trying my hardest to get out of it.  It's not easy, espcially since we barely scrape by.  I don't ask for handouts.  Yes, Jaden and I are on state insurance, big deal.  I'm not on food stamps.  Or cash assistance.  And I'm not on WIC.  I could be...we qualify...but we can make it so far without.

Lastly...

A big SCREW YOU goes out to anyone who thinks I'm not doing all I can for my child.  I realize that I'm not married to his father.  And why yes, we do live with my in laws.  Does that make me a terrible mother?  No...didn't think so.  We pay rent.  Buy our own food.  Jaden has his own crib and room.  He's always clean.  Has clean clothes.  And a clean diaper.  He's happy, healthy and thrieving.  He weighs an impressive 16 pounds 3 ounces.  He's exceeding his milestones.  So I think I'm doing my job pretty well.

I might not have all the newest toys for him.  And I might cuddle him a little too much.  However, no baby has EVER been a failure to thrieve because they didn't have the newest toys or enjoyed cuddle time.

Jaden is independent.  He loves to stand and babble and discover.  He brightens the whole room.  And anyone who graced his presence knows how special of a little boy he is.

That's because of Greg and myself.  Do not dismiss me because I'm not "educated" enough.  I know what I need to know...and if I don't...I learn.  Greg may have a low paying job.  He may never win the lottery...but I won the jackpot of love with him.

I may be young but I am more mature than some people older than me. 

Go ahead...underestimate me.  That just makes me prove you wrong.

Until Next Time:
~MommyToBee